Transcript
It came down to me sitting up in the mountains with a gun
to my head and my dog sitting by me.
And you write a note to your family and to your friends
and you let them know how much you love them
and that you're sorry for what you have to do.
Does it take courage to take your own life?
I don't know.
Most people say it's the most selfish act a human being
can do.
I am grateful that I didn't do it
but countless times, I was ready.
Why? No one could understand what I was feeling
and I thought it was a totally hopeless situation.
So after taking the gun down from my head and looking
at my dog and crying and thinking of my sons
and all my grandchildren, I've got to try again.
I've got to do something.
This is not normal.
This isn't right.
I've got to learn to figure this out.
So I went back to the VA, to the PTSD clinic with their help,
I also entered the psych ward and spent a week or so up there
to try and get more help.
And this was the turning point for me
because you feel there is no way out.
You totally feel there is no answer anymore.
You're at the end of your rope.
You've tried everything you can.
Nothing works.
So there's one thing left.
You put a gun to your head.
And that's not the answer.
That is not the answer.