[When] there would be a difficult scene of a sexual assault I would get up and get popcorn.

I look back now and know

that when I would sit in a movie theater

and there would be a difficult
scene of a sexual assault,

I would get up and get popcorn.

I would say, "Oh, I have
to use the bathroom."

If that happened on the
television, I would have to leave.

Because it was my little secret,

and nobody else had to know about it.

So I just had to deal with it

and wait for the memory to go away

or whatever feeling it gave me.

And I just had to fight
to get rid of that feeling

and then I would just move on.