Transcript
When I retired,
that was the point where
everything came back out
and I had to deal with those feelings.
I had to deal with the anger
and I had to deal with the resentment
of not being treated the same.
I had to deal with just all that feeling.
And also knowing that I didn't have
that safety and security
anymore when I retired.
Because my marriage was not good,
and it was verbally and
emotionally abusive as well.
And knowing that I didn't have
those protections anymore,
I was really angry and I spiraled out
for a good four or five years there.
From 2013 to 2017, I was
hospitalized three times
for a major depressive
disorder and suicide attempts.
And it was the very last
suicide attempt in 2017
that...it finally clicked
what was going on with myself
and what I needed to do
to turn that stuff around.