Transcript
(traffic sounds)
- [Voiceover] Coming to the VA to get help
was a bit difficult, because people who
never put on a uniform were treating me.
This was my mindset:
"What could you tell me that could help me,
"when you've never put on a uniform,
"never picked up a M16,
"I doubt, if I gave you a grenade, you would know
"how to pull the pin."
(somber keyboard music)
Going into the process, first I had to write out
what am I avoiding, what am I running from?
When I got to the part of my emotional feelings
towards Middle Easterners, I went through
at least two or three pencils, because of the anger.
I was breaking the lead, breaking the pencil,
going through the paper.
I was offended.
I was upset.
I don't even think I stayed this full session.
How could my core be damaged like this?
My whole center was disturbed off of a war.
After the first session, I canceled a couple appointments.
And assessing how difficult it is to live this way,
with a lot of prayer, and my wife's support,
and my pastor's support, I made up in my mind
that if I'm gonna do this, I'm gonna do it right.
And I'm gonna do it all the way.
Because I can't live like this.