That was the first time I got to just be me and say, "This really hurts," because it did.

When I was able to tell
my therapist what happened

to me for the first time in my life,

I cried and that was a huge release.

It just, I had probably wanted

to have done that for 30 years,

'cause, but I was a man
and a dad and a husband

and you can't be vulnerable,
you can't be weak, you gotta...

And to be able to just do
that was the first time

I got to just be me

and say this really hurts,

'cause it did.