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It was explained that the treatment is more effective
if I re-live the trauma that I had experienced.
I didn't believe that because I told the lady, I said,
"You got too much college, how could me re-living
what caused me to go into this shell is going to help me?"
And after she broke it down she was like, "Well, you know,
the more you," she used a scenario of, "It's a book."
The book jumps off the shelf, and instead of you
reading the book, you put it back on the shelf because
you didn't want to deal with it.
And I was like, "Yeah, that's pretty much it.
The trauma, why should I keep re-living the trauma
that I experienced that caused me to just draw in?
And this is supposed to help me to get some closure?"
And she was like, "Well, yeah, there's studies showing that
the more you re-live something,
the trauma that you experienced, it will help you."
And I was like, being that I wanted closure,
I was willing to try it, so I tried it.
There was no time set, I could have quit any time that I felt.
It could be one week, two weeks, six weeks,
a month, two months, three months, you know.
So, I tried it, and I told her, I said,
"It's not going to work, I don't believe that,"
going in there with the negativity
that I still don't understand.
And even to this day, it worked, but I did not believe that.
But it worked and it helped me, now I have some closure.
And I was in this, the program for over three months.
And like I said, it worked.