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These feelings of guilt that I was feeling over Soto's death,
they weren't really my fault, and all I was really feeling
was that I was upset that I wasn't there for him.
The fact is, the PTSD made it so hard for me that I couldn't
go to his funeral, and years later that's what I regret.
I regret that I had not gone to his funeral.
I was so scared that they were going to blame me,
that they were going to say, you know,
"Why weren't you there for my son?"
As if that's what they're going to tell somebody
who served with their son in Iraq.
I was so scared, though.
And I guess what I learned was if I had the chance
to do it all over again, I would have talked to somebody
about how I was feeling about Karl earlier on.
And I guess then, I'd of probably gone to his funeral.
I'd of probably gotten to talk to his mom.
I'd of probably told her all the good times
that I had with her son, at least.