There was no room left for anyone else.

I was just concerned, I think, that whatever this thing was,

and for many years we didn't know what it was,

was just consuming him as a person,

and there was no room left for anyone else.

For a long time, I think my father's drive in life

was just to push everyone away as much as humanly possible.

And he's very good at that.

But I don't know that I ever took it personally

because I could see that there was something else going on.

But as I said, for many years, we didn't know what that was.

So, that's a hard thing to sort of balance out.

What happened to the guy that I used to know?

Because gee, he was a great guy.

And why am I now have this guy dropped in my lap,

who's very often just angry or moody

or just not there at all?