Seeing him lash out at the kids like that was hard.

When he would start getting angry toward the kids,

I would almost feel like I wasn't being a good mom

because I wasn't protecting them from his outbursts.

And that really weighed heavily on my heart.

Even though I knew that it was his problem

and that I couldn't do anything for him,

just seeing him lash out at the kids like that, was hard.