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Only 30% of me was actually participating in anything...

Leah Parady, US Air Force 1993 - 2011, talks about when she knew she needed to get help for PTSD.

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I felt like I was being totally in a movie,

like I was desensitized, I was depersonalized at work

and I was watching everything sort of happen around me,

and I was just thinking, "This cannot be normal.

This has got to be a stress reaction.

Something else is going on here,"

and it just got to the point where I felt like I was

really retracting, not just physically, I guess,

but somehow mentally I was getting to the point

where I was hiding that way as well.

So I was physically avoiding things,

but I was starting to mentally sort of avoid things

and I felt like I was sort of, I don't know

who will understand this, but I felt like I was sort of

hiding within myself, and only about 30% of me

was actually participating in anything any more,

I was just that full of anxiety.

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