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I would say the hardest part of everything probably
was just uncertainty, which, I think to this very day,
is probably something that,
kind of ingrained in the back of my head
that uncertainty is not necessarily a good thing.
Just not knowing what the future held, you know.
Am I going to stay in the school that I'm in?
Are we going to stay in the house that we're in?
Is my father coming back, ever?
Is he going to be back, you know, he could be back next week,
he could be back next month, he might not ever come back.
You know, he was prone to, he'd go camping in the woods.
Is something going to happen when he's out?
Is something going to happen when he's
sleeping in a rest area on the highway?
Is he going to fall asleep, you know, in a rest area
on the side of the road and something happen to him
while he's sleeping?
There are many numerous stories of him being on the road
and waking up while the car was still moving
at a high rate of speed and just,
just making it out of being in an accident.
Just so many questions you don't have an answer to.
Far and away, that is the worst thing for
a kid that's growing up in a family
with someone's posttraumatic stress disorder,
is just, just no, no answers at all.
Nobody has any answers, and that's really difficult.