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My job kept me going

Health issues forced Steve Aoyagi to retire at the age of 50. That's when his PTSD became a problem for him.

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Back when I was working I kept myself busy 110% of the time.

I would work sixty hours a week, a lot of times.

I'm usually out there earning, busting my butt,

working all this overtime, and working double time Sundays.

You know I didn't have any time to think about

what I went through in Vietnam.

After I quit work,

all of sudden, all of these memories came back.

Flashbacks,

nightmares of people that were just casualties of war,

innocent people, you know- collateral damage.

A lot of anger came out. Depression, loneliness, guilt.

And I was screaming and yelling all the time.

Sometimes it got a little physical.

And I would never, ever, hurt anybody in my family.

But there were some close calls.

I was about ready to end it all,

and my wife just says, "You need to get help."

I was told to go through an evaluation

and I was rated with PTSD.

Being idle enhanced my symptoms-

they were always there- but once it was brought out,

they seemed to get worse and worse and snowball.

(pool balls crack)

I started getting treatment,

I started going the programs,

I started gong to group therapy.

It was an older group,

mostly all Vietnam vets and all combat veterans.

I mean it was like looking in a mirror.

And I couldn't honestly tell you I probably would not be here

right now if I didn't get the help from the PTSD treatment.

I believe that PTSD treatment can work

after thirty, forty years.

I'm testimony.

Through church and family and the treatment,

I've got a better understanding

and can get ahold of my PTSD.

It's not an easy road.

I'm not cured, but I'm here today.

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