My family couldn't trust me.

Oh, it really affected my sisters, my mom.

It affected my brother, it
affected my relationships with

my grandkids because I wasn't present.

And I wouldn't participate in any events.

I wouldn't come to the family reunion,

I wouldn't come to the family picnic,

I wouldn't go to birthdays.

Like I was terrified.

I didn't wanna leave my
house or I was too drunk.

I wouldn't be there.

So, my family couldn't trust me.

They couldn't trust me at my word.

That if I said I was gonna do something

0 I was gonna do it.

A lot of times I would
say yeah, I'll be there,

and I was at home drunk
when the time came.