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Keeping the alcohol diary,
practicing the tools,
and the skills that Doctor
Santana had taught me,
it was kind of like a challenge.
Can I do this without alcohol?
Can I? Do I want to? No.
Absolutely not.
Absolutely want to drink.
I want to drink more.
But I wanted to get better.
That desire to get through
this was very strong.
And you have to have
that personal, intrinsic
motivation to get through this.
Because if you don't,
it is easy to give in.
So I challenged myself
to practice the skills
that she was teaching me for
delayed gratification, basically
riding waves of cravings
and at the same time
living with these memories
in a more present way
than I ever have before.
It was hard,
but she was there.
She understood.
She was compassionate,
and I was able to be more raw
and honest with her
than I ever
have before with anybody.