I've lost many jobs.

When I got back from the service

I was very hyper, I know that.

I couldn't stop doing things, I was constantly moving,

constantly going around.

I always had bad dreams, hitting walls, putting holes in walls.

I just couldn't control myself, especially at night.

I couldn't keep a job.

Even though I did work for one company for 24 years,

I never moved up that high because I was always

kind of a rebel, I was a loner

as far as the upper management was concerned.

They tried to get me to do things and I wouldn't do it,

and I fought, and then after that, I've lost many jobs.

I'd work for companies two or three years

and either I got severed from them or the companies closed

or whatever, and I'd end up fighting myself.

I have financial issues -- I had super

problems with financial issues.

It's just something that I couldn't help, and we ended up

going through bankruptcy, even, because of it.

And I didn't know what the problem was.

All I knew was that I couldn't control myself sometimes.

There were times I was a great person to be around.

I didn't have any problems, I could go places and be among

people, I did public speaking without any problem at all.

And then there was other times when I was a devil,

and it was really not that much fun.

And my last job that I lost, that's when I went

down to the bottom.

And I went into severe, severe depression,

and the depression was so bad that I threatened suicide,

and I even called the hotline, the suicide hotline,

and they got me into the VA quickly.

And from the VA, everything changed.