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It actually poured over into my personal life once I became a civilian.

Michael Allison (US Marine Corps, 1999-2007) describes how moral injury affected his important relationships and ultimately his will to live.

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It actually poured over

into my personal life
once I became a civilian.

So I struggled
when it came to my transition

out of the military,
when it came to employment

and either identifying
or telling my employer

that I was in the military
and things like that.

I struggled when it came to my
relationship with my first wife.

That led to having a divorce.

I was on different
types of medication,

just trying to suppress

what I'm dealing with,
what I'm feeling with.

And that led me to the brink

of almost committing suicide
and trying to take my life.

When I was living in Tampa,
Florida,

and going through
some of these things

and bottling
some of these emotions

really put me
into a very isolated place

where I didn't want to deal with
anybody

and I didn't
love myself anymore,

didn't see the value
in being alive anymore,

and thinking that I would be
better off dead in regards

to getting getting out of here
and not being here anymore

because of so many things
that I was dealing

with and bottling on the inside.

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