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John Angell Jr., US Marine Corps 2003 - 2008, talks about when he knew he needed to get help for PTSD.

Transcript

I think that's the only time when people change is

when they're on their breaking point.

I think it takes an action or a situation that causes them to be

in a situation they don't want to be in and that's

when they realize that there's a problem.

You're not walking down the street and, "Oh, I have PTSD

and let's go see if I have help."

You realize you have PTSD when you wake up

and you have your Glock 40 pointed at your wife's head

and you think she's someone else.

When you get to that point, it's too late.

When you think there's a problem you need to go,

not when you know there's a problem.

When I pulled a gun on my wife, I reacted as a Marine not

as a man, not as John.

I reacted as a Marine.

When I realized it was my wife

and it wasn't someone else that's when I realized

that I'm John, I'm not the Marine anymore.

I'm always a Marine but I'm not the Marine that was in Iraq.

I'm the Marine who's in Salt Lake City, Utah.

There's no reason for me to be acting like that.

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