I wouldn't even trust my mom.

Relationships, intimacy, couldn't.

I mean it was just,

that was probably one of the largest impacts

on personal relationships was just,

lack of trust.

I didn't trust anybody, I mean I wouldn't even trust my mom.

I didn't trust myself.

And I think that was the biggest fear is,

through all of it I'd found the monster within

and I was so afraid that if someone else

saw that monster, if I let it out of the box,

even though anger and little tidbits

snuck out here and there,

but if anybody ever saw the monster,

they wouldn't have anything to do with me.