Transcript
The studs is, it's a scale,
like zero being the least, 100 being the worst.
And when you start they would have you
to close your eyes and re-live the trauma.
Starting out re-living the trauma, your studs may be at a 75,
or it may be at a 100, but by the time you finish
talking about the trauma that you experienced, it may still
be at a 75, but the more you do it, the lower the stud goes.
And I started out at 100, and it was at 100 for a while.
Then there were times when I started out at a 75.
Then there were times I started out at a 50,
but it would always decrease at the end.
At the end it would always decrease.
Sometime I may start out at a 25, and then there were times
that I thought I was at a level
at the end, it went up to a 50.
But the more that I listen to the tape,
the more that I listen to the tape, the better it became.
So it's important that you want to listen to the tape
over and over, and that would be part of the homework
that my counselor would give me.
She'd say, "Well, try to listen to it at least three or four
times this week," and I would listen to it maybe five times.
And then I would record my studs going into it,
and then I would record it and write it down at the end,
how I felt afterwards.