Transcript
So I felt as if I wasn't
the same person as I was
before I deployed or before
I went over to
Parris Island
from Third Battalion,
Seventh Marines.
And a lot of the things
that wouldn't
bother me before
were starting to bother me.
A lot of things that,
small decisions,
or things that I thought
were small decisions
and easy to make became
difficult, and I
scrutinized 'em.
I was afraid to
make a decision.
And suddenly I went from
making life or
death decisions
to deciding which uniform
to wear or trying
to remember
what exactly my leaders
told me I was supposed
to do on an event, and then
it just sent me
into a spiral
where that was probably,
it felt like the worst
thing in the world,
when it was really just
a minor detail.
And it was definitely...
I did not feel as if
I was capable
of doing a lot of the
things that I was doing
when I was in my old unit,
and that was very
disconcerting.
And that just added to the
depression and the anger.