Transcript
I remember I worked a summer job as a landscaper and one
of the guys I worked with asked me,
"Have you ever killed someone?"
He was in the Army so he figured, well we were both
in the military we can talk about it.
It wasn't something I wanted to talk about
and for some reason every time I saw that guy
and we were landscaping, I wanted to take that shovel
that I was digging with and just beat his head in.
Another trigger that I had when I was working a summer job
as a landscaping, I was driving in the truck with my boss,
he was driving luckily.
A car backfired off to my right side.
I remember instantaneously jumping in my seat,
turning to the right, reaching back right
where my little peashooter 9 mil was since I had Marines
and was ready to engage.
And it all happened within a split second
and my boss was just like, "Holy crap, what's wrong?"
And I was just like, "It's all right, we're fine."
And I returned back and just kind of eased in
and I was set off and had anxiety for the next couple
of hours and couldn't focus
because we were driving in a truck.
It was an old diesel truck, sound of diesel engines
and there was a fire and you're ready to go and it all happen
so split second there was no thought put into it.
Surprised myself.