I was hiding myself from others.

Every time I went to the VA hospital

because of my excessive drinking, I was immediately

put into this drug and alcohol treatment program.

I went through these programs many, many times,

and have the coins to prove it.

And every time I came out of this program, this

drug and alcohol rehab program, I would stay sober for,

I think the longest length of time was five years.

But then I would always find I was adapting the program

into myself and also hiding myself from others

to keep maintaining my sobriety.

So, I wanted to stay sober and clean, so in order for me

to do that I would have to go to work, come home,

shut my door, stay away from people that I know

would make me angry or cause me to drink.