I thought I was going nuts.

I think one of the very lowest points which is hard to talk

about but I think is important to talk about,

but it's something that a lot of people don't know about me is,

I fought my case with the Navy

for several months prosecuting my rapist and the Navy decided,

it never went to courts-martial or captain's mast,

the Navy decided there wasn't enough evidence.

I'm not going to get into all the specifics of that

but during this time, my rapist was free.

So he would stalk me around base, follow me to chow hall,

just intimidate me and I had early onset PTSD

so I thought I was going nuts, wasn't sleeping, stopped eating,

so it was a really scary time.

I really felt trapped in the situation that I was in.

Long story short is I attempted to take my own life

and I have scars on my wrist from doing that

and the Navy put me in a psych ward on Travis Air Force Base.

And that's really embarrassing to tell someone, ''Hey,

I was in a psych ward one time!"

you know. Fortunately I had my Discman with Metallica on it.

But honestly that was the best thing to happen to me

because the Air Force nurses and doctors, I gotta tell you,

military people bag on the Air Force a lot,

but the Air Force nurses and doctors were fantastic.

They took care of me, they got me to eat, they got me to sleep,

they put me in a safe atmosphere

and they stabilized me for a moment.

But I guess, what I'd want everyone

to know is don't attempt suicide, don't do it,

and don't let it get to the point

where you do something like that.

And I mean, yeah, I can say that because I did try

but just don't let it get that bad.