I think the alcohol use helped me to become numb...to accept it, and to hopefully not remember.

I believe that

feeling objectified

as a woman in the military from,

from basic training.

So in basic training,

I was sexually assaulted

by the Senior Drill Sergeant.

And when I got to my first unit,

it didn't stop the harassment,

the inappropriate behavior

from male senior leaders

to females

to include myself.

It was prevalent.

I think that the

alcohol use helped me to

accept a false narrative

that I was

only good...

My worth was based on the

sexual attention

that I received.

I think the alcohol use

helped me to

become numb to that,

to accept it,

and to hopefully not remember.