Transcript
Hard work when you have to look inside yourself
and dig up old feelings inside that you haven't
ever let out to almost anybody.
Survivor's guilt from coming back from Vietnam.
I had 14 of my academy classmates out of my class
were killed in the Vietnam War.
I knew everyone of them, and that's hard to take.
And one of the crews that replaced us -- here's some more
of the guilt thing -- I helped train the replacement crew,
one of the replacement crews, and they got killed
six months after I left, in North Vietnam.
And I've always thought, "Is there something that I
should have taught them, should have told them
that would have saved their airplane and them?"
So I had a lot of guilt involved with that.
I still deal with it a little bit, I can see now,
but I'm able to handle it better.
And I was a changed man when I came out of there.
I was no longer depressed.
I was no longer upset by, I was no longer irritable
and upset by my wife's actions.
I was getting lots of sleep.