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The major symptoms that I had initially was the feeling I was
having a heart attack and being told it was a panic attack.
Flashbacks, having blank spots in my memory.
There are parts of Iraq, my time out there, I don't remember.
And people have mentioned certain events that I was a part of,
and I tell them, "I don't know what you're talking about."
I couldn't begin to tell you anything about it.
I wish I could, from what I heard, there was nothing
happening in those times, either, which is kind of
interesting to me, why don't I remember them?
I remember the things that I would rather not remember,
but things that are relatively mundane
I can't seem to get my head around.
But having flashbacks, nightmares, very intrusive nightmares
to where I can smell and feel
like I'm actually back to those --
nightmares that are so real that you almost have to wake up
and question your own sanity and reality,
whether or not you really are back there or not.
I drank a little bit, a little bit heavier after a while
because it was trying to cope with what was going on.