I pulled a rifle on somebody close to me.

I had rifles at home.

Never ever owned weapons before growing up but after I came back

from Iraq I felt like a rifle was my best friend.

And actually when I didn't have a rifle,

when I got out after Iraq, I went and got

at least three rifles to feel safe.

I didn't feel safe at all

and was always looking behind my back

and double-looking everybody to feel like they had a motive

or something out to get me or something.

I pulled a rifle on somebody close to me.

Wasn't loaded or nothing but I pointed it 'cause I was mad

and that was the only way I knew to protect myself.

Mind you, I didn't need to protect myself.

I just needed to communicate but that was my communication-wise.

And I probably traumatized the person that I did that to.

When my therapist heard that she was like, "You really have to,

you really want to consider treatment."

So I would encourage anybody who's feeling like that

and feeling that much anger, help yourself, please.

Because you're going to hurt somebody you love

and I was going down that road.

I'm glad I'm not on it no more.

[laughs]