I probably would [have quit] if I thought I had any other options.

It was hard.

But as I did it, as I did these things that

were so very, very difficult -- first you feel worse,

and my doctor told me that I would.

No surprise there, I really did.

She said that lots of people want to quit,

and I probably would have if I'd thought

I had any other options, but I'd quit once already

and started to get worse in the next few months.

I knew I had to finish.

I might not get better, but I didn't have any other options.

So I pushed through it, and finally then

I really did feel better.

And now, thinking about that terrible experience

isn't any fun, but I don't have flashbacks of that anymore.