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I actually, I turned to alcohol.
It was a great coverup and so it wasn't quite
as much of an isolation.
It was sort of I guess an isolation
because you can't really have deep friends in that sort
of a fashion and it's really easy to get rid of friends
and it's really easy to push people away, all of which I did,
so that could be isolation.
Later on it turned more into that.
The drinking and the partying, it only lasts
so long before it becomes serious issues
and that's what it did for me.
It started causing serious life issues.
Constantly losing jobs and all sorts of stuff,
not being able to keep friends.
And so at that point that's when I did start to isolate
and I pretty much lost all my friends.
I ended up getting married which was a very,
very tumultuous marriage but other than that,
other than my wife, I pretty much didn't have any friends
for quite a few years.
Didn't want to go out to crowded events,
didn't want to have too much of a social life
for the same reason I was talking about before.
I don't want to have to try and explain it to people
and I didn't want to have to go
over my experiences every single time to try
and let somebody know and so it was much easier
to just not to have friends.