I never felt that I was worthy

Before my assault, I was very

fun loving and free and happy

and I had trust.

I trusted individuals completely.

After my assault, I didn't trust myself,

let alone anyone else.

So I worked hard

to gain anything,

to gain a personality,

to gain being whole,

and it never worked.

It was decades, and I never felt I measured up.

I never felt that I was worthy,

that I had purpose.

I didn't have hope that anyone would ever love me

the way that individuals should love another person.