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I lost my cool with [my platoon sergeant…

Eddie Hoffman, US Marine Corps, 2001 - 2010, talks about when he knew he needed to get help for PTSD.

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I was on the
rappel tower.

We would train recruits
on the rappel tower.

We'd send 'em down, we'd
teach 'em how to

tie their rigs

so they can rappel down
the tower, and all that.

And I was teaching one
recruit how to do it.

They were giving me some
lip about why they

couldn't go down

or they were afraid to
go down and all that,

and I stepped up and I gave
'em a little bit of slack

and sent 'em down the wall

and smacked against the
wall kinda hard.

I'd seen other
instructors do it before.

It was just a way to
get 'em down

and to get 'em over
their fears.

And then there was a new
platoon sergeant

that we had,

a staff sergeant, and I
was a corporal at the time.

And he talked to me about
it very sternly afterwards,

and I pretty much told him,
"That's just how we do it."

He's like, "That's not how
you do it when I'm here."

I lost my cool with
him on top of the tower

in front of other Marines,
in front of the recruits,

and that was probably
the linchpin.

That was where they sent
me to sick call.

Rather than disciplining
me, they sent me over

to sick call,

and that was where
eventually they

diagnosed me with PTSD.

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