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I knew what my problem was...I just still didn't want to tell anybody.

Steve Connor (Mess Management Specialist, US Navy, 1977 - 1979) US, Japan.

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So we're now talking 13 years ago.

There was a similar situation

with someone in my family.

And when they came to me,

there was a moment that
I looked into their face

and I saw a look, and
granted it was two o'clock

in the morning, 2:30 in the morning.

But when I saw that face
and I saw their eyes

they didn't even have to tell me

why they were there in
the middle of the night.

I knew what had happened.

I knew because that was the same face

I had when I looked in
the mirror back in 1978.

And it's a shock,

it's a disbelief,

it's a pain.

That moment started me on
a year long spiral down.

A little bit more than a year after that,

my wife, my second wife

said that we had to end

and we had to separate
because it was too much.

Within a couple of weeks, I was like,

I knew what my problem was.

I knew what the issue was.

I just still didn't want to tell anybody.

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