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I have to be real with you. I can't do groups.

Damien Holmes (US Army, US Marine Corps, 1993 - 2005) talks about what PTSD treatment was like.

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The group thing, I'm have to be real with you.

I can't do groups.

I can't do groups.

Too many people in my business, it just bothers me.

So I did a one-on-one at the Salt Lake Vet Center, not the VA

but the Vet Center with Ray Ross.

It was just me and him one-on-one

for probably close to, probably close to two years.

Two years to pull my head out of my butt, yeah.

It was worth it, I tell you.

'Cause if we would have talked then,

it will probably be just like, you ask me a question,

I'll give you an answer, that's it.

That's all you're going to get

from me 'cause I don't want to talk to you.

I don't want to talk to anybody.

It's none of your business, but the more I became more open

with it, the more it was helpful to myself, my family and others.

What I did in the one-on-one is pretty, it's more personal

and it's more private.

I mean, you can be that way in a group, but for me,

I'm a different person.

Like me and you right now, we're talking.

It's just us, it's nobody else

and I can divulge everything right there.

Me divulging everything in a group, then you got

that military mentality again coming to the back

of your head that, "Oh, what he's going to think

of me 'cause I'm saying this?"

Or "What is this guy going to think

of me 'cause I'm saying that?"

I mean it's, me, it was personal preference because I don't like,

and for me to work, for this to work, I have to be honest

and I have to be open and and it has,

it can't be anybody else's business but me

and the counselor or the psychiatrist,

whoever I'm talking to, that's it.

That's just how I am.

I don't like a lot of people in my business, period.

Especially if I'm focused on trying to unscrew myself.

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