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I drank a lot and I partied a lot and did a decent job
of covering it up and it didn't really kick in.
I could have the nightmares, I could have the other things
and it was OK in my party lifestyle.
And it was OK, it wasn't that stuff causing it,
it was this fact that I was drinking
so much and was partying.
So the signs didn't really show up until a couple years
after being back, or they were there before.
I made a suicide attempt and so that was a wake up.
I got fired from a job and I kind of lost it from there.
Was having nightmares like crazy and I couldn't talk to anybody
about it 'cause I didn't want to.
I didn't want to tell anybody about it.
Hadn't at that point decided that I was going
to say anything to anybody.
And so at that point the signs were pretty close
and in my face.
I think sometimes they bite you in the butt and that's
when you got to realize, you know,
you gotta swallow a little bit of your pride and realize
that getting help is not a bad thing.
It's not a bad thing and it doesn't mean that you're weak
and it doesn't mean that you're a failure in any means.
It just means that you need help understanding what happened
so that you can reprocess it and you can come
out with not only a stronger point of view
but now you have all that life experience behind you too,
that other people just don't have.
And get put back on a stable road and be able
to use your experiences to your advantage rather
than letting them pick you apart.