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I felt that I was responsible.

Penny Anderson (US Army, 1985 - 1994, 1996 - 2013) talks about why she didn't ask for help with her PTSD right away.

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When my MST happened,

I did not believe that I was

worthy of getting any treatment.

When my MST happened

and for a decade-and-a-half later,

I felt that I was responsible.

I felt that it was my fault that the assault happened.

If I would've worn a different pair of shorts.

If I would have said something different.

If I would have been somewhere else,

it wouldn't have happened to me.

I didn't realize that I deserved help.

I didn't realize that I had enough value

that anyone would want to help me.

It wasn't stigma, it was the self-negative talk.

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