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I'm losing my friends that
are extremely close to me,
I feel like I'm failing myself.
I'm failing my morals.
So it's like
I'm trying to keep people alive,
but I'm not doing good enough.
And it's like, why?
I kept asking myself, why?
Why did this person pass away?
What could I have done better?
What could I have done
to prevent this?
And sometimes there
just isn't an answer to that.
Sometimes
you just can't prevent it.
Sometimes
there's no indications of,
you know, that there -
anyone's going to pass away.
It just happens,
you know?
And that's something
that I had to learn, you know,
for the longest time,
I was trying to make
something irrational,
rational in my mind,
which made me spiral
out of control
because it’s just, you're trying
to make sense of something
that doesn't make sense.