I don't have to be afraid.

Well, the biggest things that treatment, I think,

did for me, or showed me,

was that by listening to the events

over and over continuously,

that it became secondary

to my mental state.

There wasn't something that was dominating my mental state

all the time.

It's like watching a movie over and over,

100 times in a week.

You know, you pretty well get tired of listening to it,

so that's what the training did for me.

It made it to where

the trauma that I faced was not so intense and so real

in my life.

It was more, "Okay, it's there, I gotta live with it."

I don't have to be afraid of it

and I don't have to be controlled by it.

I can control it.