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You know, I didn't want to feel anything and I had numbed
out for so long with pharmaceuticals
and anxiety medication and antidepressants and then I was
on opiates for back pain.
I was really using one avenue
to cure all my ailments and that was drugs.
And today I've realized that that was a very painful time
for me and it's very kind of good that I was
on all those things, those psychiatric medications,
because I was really depressed and I was really struggling.
There were times when I was suicidal.
But today and I would say it's taken me several years to come
to the conclusion that I prefer to be clean
and sober while I'm working through this process
and if there are things that my psychiatrist thinks
that would help me to cope with these things,
then that's what I would do.
But at this point, I'm managing OK without having
to take anything because feeling is actually really a good thing
if you've lived in your robe and haven't felt anything
for like 10 years like I have.
So I'm enjoying feeling things and crying.
[laughs]