I didn't connect with my son all of the time.

It just made things difficult.

I mean, it was hard to talk about, still kind of is hard

to talk about, but you've got to push past that boundary.

You've got to push past that barrier.

Really, I mean, I kind of internalized it.

I didn't really act out or punch holes through the walls

or anything like that.

I kind of internalized it more and it really isolated me.

And so I didn't connect with my son all of the time.

If he wanted to play, you know,

"Dad's having a minute," or whatever.

So it kind of distanced me from him a little bit.