I didn't believe it was there.

I don't think I reached out for help

after the first initial,

after that night,

because I didn't believe it was there.

I didn't believe there was help.

I didn't, it was, when
I was in the military,

it was mostly men, you
know, in that, you know

it was women there, but it
was more of a man's army,

so I didn't think there was help.