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Basically, when I'm scared I get hypervigilant.
When I first came back, I couldn't even walk in Walmart.
I had a real hard problem going to Walmart.
I'd hear people talk from a different language
and it put me on edge.
I would literally back up against the aisle in the wall
and watch the aisle down until they passed,
if they were behind me so I always kept them ahead of me.
We went to a function at New Hampshire International Speedway
where I was starting to actually patrol, doing things
where I patrol where I'd circle around and back between my son
and his best friend and I didn't realize I was doing it.
And then they started to stay in front and back of me to keep me
from being so nervous about people.
And I didn't even realize that my finger went up on my chest
like I was holding my gun, the first time I went there.
And this was basically less than a month after I got back.