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I couldn't deny it when it was in front of me.

Sarah C. Humphries, US Army 1994 - 2012, talks about when she knew she needed to get help for PTSD.

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My son had just graduated from high school.

I was gonna transfer my post 9/11 GI Bill to him

and I attended a seminar for Veterans on how

to apply the GI Bill to his program.

And so that's what I was out doing.

I wasn't prepared for what was gonna happen that evening

but there was a VA liaison named Mr. Davis

and he took the opportunity knowing that he had an audience

of Veterans to just talk to them

about the VA program, the VA program.

And he listed on the board, if your life is heading down this,

he listed, you're about to get divorced, your finances are

in trouble, are you drinking too much.

He listed all these things on the board

and just sitting there I identified

with everything on the board.

And he's a Veteran, his son's a Veteran, he knows the issue

and he used a term that I use quite a bit

with my own soldiers talking

about the light being on and off.

If you look at pictures of my solders before they deployed,

there's a light on in their eyes and when I run

into them occasionally now that we're home, it's not there.

And this Veteran when he was talking about it,

he used that same term.

It reached me.

Just seeing it listed on the board a year ago,

all of the symptoms, not so much the symptoms but the things

that happened to your life if you go untreated,

you quantify it like that, I can't deny it.

It's in front of me and I can't say, yeah, I mean,

my husband had just filed for divorce

so I could check that one.

I was having a hard time getting along with people at work.

I couldn't count more than maybe two friends on one,

sitting there, pretty much alienated myself

from everyone except my children, thank goodness.

I couldn't deny it when it was in front of me on the board

and so that was my moment to go in and get treatment.

I'm so glad I did.

I wish I had done it five years sooner.

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