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- [Voiceover] Going through the trauma for the first time was
I'll just use the word tough,
but it's much, much more than that.
It was very hard because I could see it in color.
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In my mind, I could almost
smell the sulfur.
I could smell the smoke.
I could see faces.
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All I saw was what I was most angry about.
The heightened parts of my emotions.
As I kept going,
I started to see other details,
like what the person was wearing,
what emblem was on their uniform, facial expressions,
certain things that were more and more detail.
The doctor was very patient.
She was very understanding.
I can appreciate that.
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Was it hard? Yes.
Was it difficult?
Unimaginably difficult.
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In listening to the recordings,
I wrote down what I was feeling.
I didn't wanna keep anything in that closet
that was gonna haunt me later.
So I took as though it were a broom
and swept that stuff out and brought it on the table,
and I had to trust the expertise of this doctor
and this program to do what it said it was gonna do.
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You're talking about your discomfort,
and you're putting a rating on it.
Your whole goal is to get those numbers for the zero or one.
In the beginning, my numbers were high.
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The change, it came in Session Four.
I was going through the imaginal,
and I could see it.
And I felt
a diminished amount of anxiety.
I celebrated that because I wasn't a 95.
I was a 92.
It was a large relief because I was like,
"This is gonna work.
"I can trust this process."