Transcript
The way it affected my family was, my wife was put through,
of course, the alcoholism, the drugs,
the violence, rages, the anger.
My sons grew up with this and I can't take back what I did
to my sons and my wife at the time.
They felt lost.
They tried and my friends tried to reach out,
"What can we do to help you?"
And I'd just look at them and say, "You don't get it.
You don't understand what I'm feeling here."
"Well, just talk to me."
"I can't talk to you."
That's what happens.
That's how it rolled on for 30 plus years.
And it just gets worse.
Because you get more angry because they're trying
to help you, you're really starving for the help,
but you don't know how to ask for it.
And then, you get to the point
where you don't want the damn help,
"Just leave me the hell alone."
You spent a lot of years in that mode.
"Leave me the hell alone.
Let me alone.
Leave me be.
Just let me do my thing."
And so, it crushes families.
It just devastates families.