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I cannot sleep thinking that the doors are open.

Edward Rentas, US Army 1999 - 2010, talks about how he knew he had PTSD.

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I cannot sleep thinking that the doors are open

so I keep checking the doors.

And I get up and I check the garage door, the back door,

front door, the basement door, everything, always, the windows

and it's like a phobia I have.

I don't know, but it is, it's bad.

It's like I don't trust myself knowing that something is going

to happen to the family while I'm there

and I don't want that to happen.

I don't always, like, it's a bad thing

but at least I'm making sure they're closed.

[laughs] If something happens,

it's not because the door was open.

We have a garage door indicator.

When the door is down it's green

and when the door is open, it's red.

And I get up at night and it's green

and I still open the door and look.

I don't trust that thing.

I don't know why, it works perfect.

But, yeah, it happens to me every night

when everybody comes in, I always ask my wife, "Honey,

did you lock the door?"

She says, "Yeah."

You hear me open it again, open everything, close it back

up even though she said yes.

I don't trust and I got to do it myself,

so it's done right I guess.

I don't know.

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