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I allowed the guilt to consume me.

Andrew Reeves, US Army 1999 - 2009, talks about how he knew he had PTSD.

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The guilt began to consume me, it affected my day-to-day life.

I didn't want to be social, I didn't want to try

to tell anybody what to do because I was afraid

that if I told somebody, "Hey, can you go to the store for me?"

they were going to be hit by car, and then it would be

my fault, and then I'd feel even more guilt.

But that's not the case.

The guilt, through therapy I learned, was because of my PTSD.

Because I had been there and I knew the dangers

of being in Iraq, I knew that, because I wasn't there,

I felt that I couldn't help people and keep them safe

because I was here and not there.

In actuality, it was a fact of life, right?

It wasn't any more of one or the other,

it was more because I was suffering from PTSD,

and I allowed the guilt to consume me.

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