Everything I enjoyed just disappeared.

Yeah, I thought I was worthless.

It, you know, it made me feel like,

well, you know, what was I doing here?

You know, why?

You know, I'd be better off if I wasn't here.

And, like I said, that's the first time

I tried to commit suicide.

You know, I didn't have any friends,

all my relationships were gone.

I was drinking like a fool.

I didn't have any hobbies.

Everything I enjoyed

just disappeared, I just let 'em go.

I just figured, I don't know what I figured to be honest.

That...

There is no, you know,

no point in doing anything that I enjoy

because I didn't enjoy doing it.

And trying to

figure out why,

I couldn't come up with an answer.

And it was just,

for years it was like that.