Cocaine would keep me awake, and I was deathly scared of the nightmares.

At the time,

I was using a lot of drugs

in my system

because, mainly cocaine,

because it would keep me awake.

And I was...

deathly scared of the

nightmares I was having,

which is why I was using

cocaine in the first place.

I was suffering from PTSD,

undiagnosed and untreated.

It took me 13 years

before I actually got help.