Transcript
That's the biggest wound
that I have from the incidents,
from the trauma is...
Why me?
Not why did I survive versus somebody else
but why did somebody think it was okay
to do this to me?
Why, why me?
Of all the people around, why was it me?
And that's the isolation,
that's the, I feel completely alone,
that is always the fight
and that's the shame of what did I do?
What did I say?
What didn't I do?
Just why did you pick me?
I didn't ask for this, I didn't want this.
I now am much better
able to deal with that,
again there's moments
that it's still hard.
But I now have the knowledge
and being with other men
that have gone through this,
I know it's not just me.
And they had the same question.
Why did you pick me?
And you know, they're
not gonna get an answer.
I'm never gonna get an answer.
It just happened,
and you have to learn to accept it.
But knowing that there's
other people out there
who are asking that same question,
just makes it easier to get through,
just fights the isolation.
It holds back some of the shame.