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I got into a career where it was stressful.
When you mix a 22-piece orchestra, live,
and you know about a million people are listening to it,
and then you go to a commercial break and come back
and mix a rock band right after that, and then a comedian
following it, and then mix a five-piece band,
and then back to the 22-piece orchestra, it's stressful.
And you know that everybody is watching,
and you know that they're critical.
And you're inventing things, and you hope,
"OK, oh jeez, I hope this time it works."
And when it becomes successful, it's an adrenaline rush,
I mean the whole time, it's an adrenaline rush.
And I was doing that practically every day.
I think I used the marijuana, also, to bring me back down
a little bit because I was up high, I mean, that adrenaline,
I felt that, I mean, it was fun.
And I never really equated that to combat until I went on
the website today and listened to a gentleman who talked about
that adrenaline rush, and I said, "Wow, that's true."
I never really, you know, I just thought that
that was a rush of an artist, so to speak.
I was doing art, and that was a part of the process.
And no, that was also part of the addiction.